I woke up about 3 am and couldn't go back to sleep so I reached for my iPad to turn on some music. My blurry eyes couldn't see the details so I just tapped on the Music icon and then randomly tapped on a song.
Celine Dion began singing:
I'M ALIVE!
When you bless the day
I just drift away
All my worries die
I'm glad that I'm alive.
God knows that I'm alive.
It occurred to me that I somehow need to realize and even embrace the fact that even though Dale is not here with me the way he used to be (and there is still a huge rip in the fabric of my existence) the fact is - I am alive and just like everyone still here on this mortal earth we should all be singing, "I'm glad that I'M ALIVE and I can't wait for the rest of my life because God blesses each day".
And I'm reminded of Henry Van Dykes' poem:
Be glad of life
because it gives you the chance
to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.
So my mantra going forward...is I'm Alive!. Even though that is very hard for me to say right now, I'm realizing that in order to progress I need to say it, feel it and do something more with this gift by embracing the fact that I am 'glad' that I can love (unconditionally) and work and play and I should also give myself permission to look at the stars and the sunsets and the beauty of the earth. I'm beginning to believe that it's good to be alive and that's how Dale would want it to be for me.
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